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One can live a long life without learning anything; one can last on Earth without adding nor changing a sigle brushstroke of the landscape; one simply can not be dead without being alive either. Not loving, ever, nothing, nobody, is enough. It is the only infallible recipie to avoid suffering. I bet my life on the exact opposite. And for many years it had definately ceased to matter to me whether what was lost was more than what was won. I thought we were already even, the world and I, now that none of us respected each other too much. But one day it dawned on me that I could still do something to be completely alive before being definitely dead...